L for LIFE

I have not been sleep well this few days.. 

The stupid assignment and MUET test are driving me mad! 

Sometimes, I really can't make up my mind what should do 1st, what thing should come after. 

I mess up the schedule. 

As you know, I'm punctual people, I want everything in my life in a regular manner, hopefully everything will be in a routine basis! LOL..

I know it is impossible ..hehe..Actually I'm lazy, I do not want my schedules which I have planned properly change. I lazy to reschedule it again. 

Time is so precious for everyone. I not gonna waste a single simple thingy to affect my whole day plan.

 I will fed up with it, is very very annoying. 

Sometimes, this would make me moody and lost my concentration on doing other things. LOLx.. I always have a lists of schedule in my mind, my daily activity sounds robotic.haha.. 

Today is Saturdaay, i shall have gather with my whole family, get together for dinner at home/outside.

 I had my dinner with my family at home, watching Taiwan TV show, laughing together ♥ 

As normal, after dinner we will have our leisure time outside either Pasar Malam nor my relative's homeee. It's like 21 years, I have such habit on every Saturday nite since I was small.

 I love to live in this way ....

 

Hmm..it's the second last day bb at Guang Zhou, I looking forward for you to come back real soon. I hope I would be the 1st person you meet when you reach in airport. 

Yet, I can't make it and give you a surprise. Sorryyyy! This is because I have class in the Monday afternoon 2pm, and I dun know how to go Puchong to meet up wtih your sis so that I can go together with her to airport.. 

Anyway, we make our date on the next day(Tueday). 

Yeahhh~suddenly feel bit of nervous..lol..

It has been almost 3 months we never meet each other.. 

Ohhh, it's longgg.. 

Anywaay, the toughest days have passed! 

I miss you bb  ♥ 

I gonna give u a biggest warming hug !!!

APRIL FOOL

Today is April Fool! I bet you all will be fooled by ur frens! Yes, I fooled by my roomate..LOL  

It is April Fool, so it's ok to cheat/ fool people or being cheated..haha! Have fun what ..

But .....

sometimes during April Fool, doesnt mean all the people will fool you. Yesterday, i was chatting(sms&mailing) with bb. We were arguing for something and he asked for break up.

 I thought he was kidding with me you know. 

In fact, he annoyed and really mean to it.

 I was so depress and upset. 

A list of planning for our future suddenly like collapse. 

I was like a lost man. I dun knw what am I going to do next. 

As I have clearly visualize our future in my mind. 

I was depressed and disappointed for myself as I failed to be a good gf which I thought I am nearly perfect. In fact, I am not a good gf for you. 

I dun knw how to support you, encourage you when you oversea. 

But, I'm like creating problems and nonsense for you to make you more stressful. 

I am so bad! 

 I was doing  Business Research assignment with my frens in library.

 However, I can't concentrate on what I am doing. 

I throw alot of questions to myself, why ? 

Why I still is a failure people, I always make thing worse, make people upset for me, make people worry about me! 

What the hell I am doing huh? I'm 21 this year, why can't myself doing something more constructive and productive ???? 

I do not want to repeat all the shityy things I did before!

 I love you and I wan to do everything good for you so you will feel comfortable to stay together with me.. 

I want you have a unforgettable memory in ur life which is the time u spent with me.

 I want you feel how lucky and how happiness you are to have me! 

You are nearly PERFECT for me you knw??? 

Somehow, I do hurt you with my tones of voice, word of mouth ..

I'm so sorry bb .. 

Actually, I am too care for you so I will upset when you are saying something bad while you in a bad mood. 

Please forgive me ;)

I love you 

♥

W.H.y.

我们人往往总爱对自己爱的人， 在乎的人发脾气
搞得自己心情变差
是不是越在乎那个人， 他反而越不在乎你呢？

Indirect Relationship??? 

这些事是非常复杂的，
不能用什么SPSS system 就能计算出来了！
有时候 真的觉得做人难






现在的我真的很难过 ..

11 days

11 days to go!

 I really miss you so much!

I hope I can hug u now 

BB faster come back lahhhhhhhhhh~

hehe

Guang Zhou

Finally, you leave Malaysia. He is in Guang Zhou on business now! I gonna miss you for about 3 weeks, 20 days! What a long period! 

I'm looking forward for you to come bck!

:*

You made me smile (:

I love Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday! It will be the time for us to meet up.I had good and enjoyable days with you this few days yet im hoping the happy moments with you would never end! How good it is If we could stop at these happy moments! I hope I can stick with you 24hrs. I wanna hug you tightly~
However, time flies very fast. It is Monday again, a tiring week starts. I hate Monday!! And I hv a lot of works to rush by. Sigh..
Another sad thing is bb is going to fly to Guang Zhou, China in this coming Thurs. He will be coming back on 11th April!!! It about 19 days I can't see him. (19days are not short, I must be miss him badly!) Oh gosh, I think I'm gonna mad withing these days. I miss you! This will be the 1st time we not meet with each others for so many days. I guess it would be more to come in future ):

Alright, till then, night!

Two is better than one ♥

I ♥ you so much~