APRIL FOOL

Today is April Fool! I bet you all will be fooled by ur frens! Yes, I fooled by my roomate..LOL  

It is April Fool, so it's ok to cheat/ fool people or being cheated..haha! Have fun what ..

But .....

sometimes during April Fool, doesnt mean all the people will fool you. Yesterday, i was chatting(sms&mailing) with bb. We were arguing for something and he asked for break up.

 I thought he was kidding with me you know. 

In fact, he annoyed and really mean to it.

 I was so depress and upset. 

A list of planning for our future suddenly like collapse. 

I was like a lost man. I dun knw what am I going to do next. 

As I have clearly visualize our future in my mind. 

I was depressed and disappointed for myself as I failed to be a good gf which I thought I am nearly perfect. In fact, I am not a good gf for you. 

I dun knw how to support you, encourage you when you oversea. 

But, I'm like creating problems and nonsense for you to make you more stressful. 

I am so bad! 

 I was doing  Business Research assignment with my frens in library.

 However, I can't concentrate on what I am doing. 

I throw alot of questions to myself, why ? 

Why I still is a failure people, I always make thing worse, make people upset for me, make people worry about me! 

What the hell I am doing huh? I'm 21 this year, why can't myself doing something more constructive and productive ???? 

I do not want to repeat all the shityy things I did before!

 I love you and I wan to do everything good for you so you will feel comfortable to stay together with me.. 

I want you have a unforgettable memory in ur life which is the time u spent with me.

 I want you feel how lucky and how happiness you are to have me! 

You are nearly PERFECT for me you knw??? 

Somehow, I do hurt you with my tones of voice, word of mouth ..

I'm so sorry bb .. 

Actually, I am too care for you so I will upset when you are saying something bad while you in a bad mood. 

Please forgive me ;)

I love you 

♥