HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
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Conclude from 2009..
I got the greatest happiness in my life and lost it in a moment! I lost my dearest, I lost myself, I lost everything in my life. Thank him gave me all this things! I hate someone i wouldn't want to hate. I have to forget someone i ain't want to forget. So what?! I had learned from this relationship that nothing will last forever. NO PROMISES! LOVE IS CRUEL! SWEET WORDS DOES NOT WORK FOR ME! F*** YOU GUYS!!!! I look down myself and I hate myself. Well, came to the end of the year I met a new fellow who is a coward. Just forget about it. Ohya..I did enjoy my clubbing life since last few months..XD Yep yeP!!

My new year resolution, hmm....I dun know..haha!
*Hope to find my Mr' Right,hehe!
*Get well in my Final exam XD
*Have a good health
*Getting more more more pretty XD
*Have more pocket money to spend XD
*Meet more and more frens

I wish and hope everything will be much more easier and better in the year 2010.
Happy new year ^^
Love U aLL~

简单就是快乐

这时我对爱的需求

我要的爱情 不是什么轰轰烈烈的

我要的 只是简单 踏实的爱

真的没有一个男生会明白

他们永远都不会明白

我是个多么简单的一个 女生!

I am a NUT!!

STOP doing such stupid thing ok?

I hate you Penny!

Go bac Go bac..Go bac to your reality of life!!

Exam just around the corner

I am still sitting right here for FB, MSN and blogging..

GOSH!

甜蜜心烦 愉悦混乱
我们以后 会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案
再靠近一点点 就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点 我就跟你走
你还等什么 时间已经不多
再下去 只好只做朋友
再向前一点点 我就会点头
再冲动一点点 我就不闪躲
不过三个字 别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口 你就能拥有我

我们心里面 明明都有感觉 为什么不敢面对 我不相信 都动了感情却到不了 爱情 那么贴心却进不了 心底 你能不能快一点决定 对我说我爱你 cited from 恋人未满

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
It's almost my feeling
so tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
when I tell you love has come here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I can't believe it's happening to me

Something so tender I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming but til I awake..
Can we make the dream last forever?
And I'll cherish ..

Why?
you said I tried in vain to get your attention..
I am a play girl??
I am a bad one???
I used to do all this thing just ONCE!!!
And u threw my heart away .. it's ok really!
I'm NOT sad but I dun understand why
bcuz im not a girl what u think on me..
You felt sorry but I felt even more than yours.

I just got myself to blame, Sorry...

Christmas Christmas Christmas Christmas EVE
I went shopping with my gangs..
I'm superb happy~
Bought bag, and a mini skirt=)
It's so tired after whole day shopping
and we took lot of photos there..
At night..
I did sms him>.<
and and and ...
We met up at the end, he came to find me
I was so surprising that he would come to find me~
toddle~

Last tue, he dated me out for dinner..
You know guys,
I'm got a shock when told me that.
I told myself not to fall in love with anyone as I dun wan go back to the past.
Now, he comes to find me.
Sometimes, I really dun knw what his brain think about.
I dun knw what he want.
I dun even knw would he has feeling towards me?! So confusing>.I so worry that he will get frighten.
What else I can do ya?
tell me, God.
I so afraid i would hv a wrong move.
You guys dun even know how very special he is..haha
I got feeling towards him.
but I know it's too fast too fast..hmm..


Stop dreaming..Arghhhhhh..
>.<

I know

I am too rush for it

I know I shouldn't be like this

I m wonder: Would you starting to avoid me?

I m too over edi..aikssss

pardon for that>< Hope to see you tml
night~

I have to admit that
I'm superb happy by now..
I found him I found him~
It has not been a guy who can make me so fascinated..LOL
everyday~
I keep on thinking of him,hehe
you don't even know how very special you are~
What all I can do is try
everyday of my life
Today I met him again
I thought i will not see him today
who know, he appear at the end of the lecture..

toddles ~

我曾经以为有些事我不说出来,
不提出,
就是保留你的自尊和感受 最好的方法
但是原来不是这样..
就是因为我这样做令你觉得我不关心你, 不明白你
我越想接近你,你越逃避我
我很想知道到底我这样做有错吗?
我的关心 你都一直认为不是出自真心的
我很伤心因为原来你一点都没有明白我的苦心
我写的这一切一切
不是要你看到, 而我要你知道我真的有用心地去对待你
我知道我在做什么, 我也知道我的心不会再去爱你
因为它已经跌入谷地..............

我不会再打扰你了，
我也不会再傻傻的相信什么所谓的天长地久。
因为
我热爱残酷爱情的专题，
可是，
爱情至此和我没关系。
有些伤，
能用一辈子铭记。。
有些痛，
永远疼在我们的心上。。。
爱能让人醉过，
也能让人一瞬间心碎到谷底..

Everything is returned to zero. I used to sad and emo for almost 2 months, every night, everyday. But, I found not reason for me to keep on missing him. I can't found a reason for me, really.
So fast, it already Dec. It's a happy and happiness month. It's a Christmas. A pretty and glamor Christmas tree with a sweet couple. LOL! This year I'm going to have a very different Christmas I guess. Those unwanted memory is erased. I deleted the files. I can't even imagine that I am able to put down him so fast! I am having my happy life now. I suddenly feel hateful to those days. His smile look likes so slyly. I lost and wasted my days. I promise to myself, I will not going to let anyone to torture my life like before. GOSH! why am I still writting about that dude?!! HOLY SHIT!

yes!
I'm back to KL tonight..hehe
today after having my dinner with mt family
we headed to JJ for shopping
I bought a pair shoes, 2 T-shirts and a bag
happy^^
Long time dint hanging with my family
so happy today~
Now,
I realise that how important a family is!
I hope it's not too late for me to realise it!
I love my family..muackssssss..

he is back..
again
it's complicated..
why ya?
I dun wan to hurt him one more time
why he still wan to find me?
is it better for you?

Last monday
i had a econ mid-term test
and i got a fucking bad results and it is never happen b4 tis!
since the day you went away
everything is changed!
especially me
I even do not wat I am doing
I did wrongly
I have sins
I so hate myself
How?
How to get rid of my sins?
I call everyone as I used to calling you
It's hilarious !
Can it stop ?!!!

No matter
how tired his life be,
how heavy his burdens are,
how bad others being treated to him,
how dark the world is,
how lonely the night is,
betray, lost and depress do happen in future
there is still a person who is willingly standing there for him..
I swear and I promise
I will be there always but not every time
But,
He will never know that....

Again..I put the salt on my wound
Again..I made my wound even more seriously
I'm happy with that
Again..I m emo
I hate me because simply because i too in love with him
I know the word " forget him" is simply used to cheat on myself and my frens
Even and even..Reason, repeat and repeating..
Also, the bleeding wound is never recover!
I just wrap it up..It is inflamming?!
Wish he is right beside with me now..
it's right 430am and im still awake and online!!
I really wanna leave leave leave leave
I dun wan to play a role in this stage anymore!!!

I just got myself to bear all these..
I'm not in a good mood right now..
I'm wondering what he is doing now..
I'm feeling wanna cry out
I wan someone for me to talk with
What I can do is go to bed now and cry loneliness inside my blanket!
i cant let anyone to c my weakness...


i love You :i love myself =)

原来
出卖自己也比不上失去他 痛
冷静下来
并不是放下
而是 习惯了痛
我少了找你
不是我不再爱
而是我 厌倦了这样 的感觉
我变了
我变得 懒散了
我变了
我变得我也认不出我自己
我刚和朋友看了2012
我又在戏院睡着了
之从我一个人走
我变得好累
连看戏本来是轻松的
但给我 却是难受的
曾和他踏过的地方
都是难忘的
我不能再哭了
但是心里总是刺痛的
泪 却不由自主地滑落脸颊
我很累
真的
但他不再让肩膀给我靠...

I had learned one thing that like a person not necessarily he knew;

love a person, not necessarily need to own him.

it is impossible for me to do that in the past

but now i know and i am happy with that feeling.

the one i was happy with

the one i will keep it deep inside my heart

forever?!

no!

it's eternity!!

❤

when i saw my tears

i know that i still hurt, i still can't let go

when i listen to you

i know we dun wish the ending to happen

i know we dun wish to stay far away from each other..

when i hear your voice

i hear your pain

I act nothing as i dun wan you to see my sorrow

actually,

i wanna tell you that

i still mind, i still care for you.

my tears are never dry since you leave

i never feeling hateful

just feeling regret..

And i never put the blame on you

I'm confusing
I lost my feeling
I lost my direction
I thought tomorrow will be better
Who's knw? it is worsen..
no one can know my feeling
i cry for none reason
i m too over!
sorry !
the i dislike the ending but the beginning is even disappointed !
no one can give me a trust even myself..
i betrayed myself!!

look at my life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror

i stop thinking of someone else slowly.
i stop to take out and refresh those memories
i stop of spending my time on him
i stop of crying
i stop of being lazy
i stop to torture and hurt myself
i stop everything that i used to do before now
i start to looking around the world outside my vision
i step out my 1st step
i promise to myself: the tears wouldn't fall like this anymore,
it can only stay inside my eyes
tomorrow is hopefulness and beautiful
i look at my life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror
what our hearts want is always different from what our brains wish to do
so that we always do something else that opposite to our heart's wish

I will deserve all the sins as i believe in karma!

He needs a holiday~

wouldn't wanna it to swap away,
want him to know,
after all they have been gone through,
after all he has been said and done
it wouldn't fade out inside her heart
the girl FINALLY leave him
she's unwillingly
she's sad
she cries
she talk to no one else
she did so cuz she love him
she know he needs a holiday NOW
she starts her own new life
she is unhappy with her new life at the begining but she has to be happy even it's hard for her...

What was happening actually?
What happened to you?
Why the person can turn into like this?
I'm wondering what actually happening to you?
I really wanna leave you forever, really..
But i saw you like this and it made me more worries..
Did you take drugs and all tht?

HELL
You ..
you.....
i'm really speechless
can you pls take care of yourself, PLEASE!!
im no longer love you and you are just one of my friend.
im no longer free to spend my time on you by blogging and talk to you
when i say this which i really mean it..
when i'm wake up but you fall asleep!
Please be conscious , free ur mind!
please dun ain't nothing,
i really NO EYES TO SEE YOU

I' m wondering..

giving protection for one is it a bad matter?
I keep want to give a protection for one so that one wouldn't get hurt like other hurt him before..
i gave him everything
in order to make him smile =)
made him feel better &
so he is able to forget those bad memories which he have gone through before
am i did wrongly????
am i?
I thought you were hurt after broke up with ur ex-gf as you said she hurt you so bad?
Or...
I wanna stop thinking you and me
but
I just caught this memory in my mind!
Did you said this b4?
Did you?
I'm blurrrr..

My caring is that way too much for you?
too much?!
I was way too protect you from getting hurt
but
what i get at the end?

You taught me be caution to everyone around me
you taught me to be smart in making new friend
you taught me to be careful
but,
you never teach me how to be caution on you!
I never think that



you will be hurt me as anyone could be..

There are 2 reasons which i choose to let you go :

1. because of the fact of tarot's

2. because you are not the one who i fall in love with!

You no longer the one i willing to cry for, sacrifice for.
You no longer the one i willing to care for.
You are not you!
You are not my bao bei who love me so much.
You are devil and my bao bei is not a devil.
You do not have the odour of my bao bei had!
I 'm sad and sad..
is simply because my bao bei is dead!
I lost the one who love me most.
I lost the caring from my bao bei.

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