APRIL FOOL

Today is April Fool! I bet you all will be fooled by ur frens! Yes, I fooled by my roomate..LOL  

It is April Fool, so it's ok to cheat/ fool people or being cheated..haha! Have fun what ..

But .....

sometimes during April Fool, doesnt mean all the people will fool you. Yesterday, i was chatting(sms&mailing) with bb. We were arguing for something and he asked for break up.

 I thought he was kidding with me you know. 

In fact, he annoyed and really mean to it.

 I was so depress and upset. 

A list of planning for our future suddenly like collapse. 

I was like a lost man. I dun knw what am I going to do next. 

As I have clearly visualize our future in my mind. 

I was depressed and disappointed for myself as I failed to be a good gf which I thought I am nearly perfect. In fact, I am not a good gf for you. 

I dun knw how to support you, encourage you when you oversea. 

But, I'm like creating problems and nonsense for you to make you more stressful. 

I am so bad! 

 I was doing  Business Research assignment with my frens in library.

 However, I can't concentrate on what I am doing. 

I throw alot of questions to myself, why ? 

Why I still is a failure people, I always make thing worse, make people upset for me, make people worry about me! 

What the hell I am doing huh? I'm 21 this year, why can't myself doing something more constructive and productive ???? 

I do not want to repeat all the shityy things I did before!

 I love you and I wan to do everything good for you so you will feel comfortable to stay together with me.. 

I want you have a unforgettable memory in ur life which is the time u spent with me.

 I want you feel how lucky and how happiness you are to have me! 

You are nearly PERFECT for me you knw??? 

Somehow, I do hurt you with my tones of voice, word of mouth ..

I'm so sorry bb .. 

Actually, I am too care for you so I will upset when you are saying something bad while you in a bad mood. 

Please forgive me ;)

I love you 

♥

W.H.y.

我们人往往总爱对自己爱的人， 在乎的人发脾气
搞得自己心情变差
是不是越在乎那个人， 他反而越不在乎你呢？

Indirect Relationship??? 

这些事是非常复杂的，
不能用什么SPSS system 就能计算出来了！
有时候 真的觉得做人难






现在的我真的很难过 ..

11 days

11 days to go!

 I really miss you so much!

I hope I can hug u now 

BB faster come back lahhhhhhhhhh~

hehe

Guang Zhou

Finally, you leave Malaysia. He is in Guang Zhou on business now! I gonna miss you for about 3 weeks, 20 days! What a long period! 

I'm looking forward for you to come bck!

:*

You made me smile (:

I love Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday! It will be the time for us to meet up.I had good and enjoyable days with you this few days yet im hoping the happy moments with you would never end! How good it is If we could stop at these happy moments! I hope I can stick with you 24hrs. I wanna hug you tightly~
However, time flies very fast. It is Monday again, a tiring week starts. I hate Monday!! And I hv a lot of works to rush by. Sigh..
Another sad thing is bb is going to fly to Guang Zhou, China in this coming Thurs. He will be coming back on 11th April!!! It about 19 days I can't see him. (19days are not short, I must be miss him badly!) Oh gosh, I think I'm gonna mad withing these days. I miss you! This will be the 1st time we not meet with each others for so many days. I guess it would be more to come in future ):

Alright, till then, night!

Two is better than one ♥

I ♥ you so much~

about you ♥

I think I should spend lil time on write about this though I am busy with my F assignments and mid term exams.

I'm blogging about him, the only  and the special one ♥ ~
He is the only person I ever met, he shows all his love and cares for me always. He understands me. Sometimes, I'm thinking that : "Am I dreaming?" I got touch on everything you did, everything you spoke. I'm touch. I love you so much. I love you more than anyone I love. I care you more than everyone could be. I want to tell you I want to love you every single day, I want you occupy my dream every night. I want to hug you. I want to squeeze ur hand. I want to stick with you forever!
You are the man I was awaiting for and I will never let you go!!!!

I LOVE YOU bb ♥

Valentine's Day~