Money? Life? Peace?

I start to feel that the stress is approaching me. I'm so afraid of the bloody stressful matter I going to face it after this month. Stresses on my academies, friends, family, love, money and myself. How am I going to take it ?? I feel like I'm going to lose myself again. Sometimes, I feel so helpless because even me myself also can't cope it. 

Now, I finished my diploma and going to continue my degree at UTAR, Sg.long. I know I will face a lot of financial problem very soon. That's why I keep looking for part time job to earn extra pocket money. Last Sunday, I went for an interview for promoting liquor. And I know this not a proper job and I will be facing some transportation problem because the public transport is far away from my house. It is quite inconvenient sometimes and unsafe because the security there not so well. What to do? I must complete my study at this level!! 

Besides, I'm thinking of you everyday. Dreaming of you. I am wondering are you my bf? Uncertainty made me worry this and that! I'm trying to sms you twice but I worry I will disturb your work. You gave me an answer but I do not know when you are free to find me. Seriously, I do not know what I want right now! Money? Life? Peace? 

Life are full of choice yet it's confusing. 

I'm missing u truly, deeply, madly !

♥

May God bless me ! 

I pray every single day to have a normal life as normal people have. I need a normal life style with a normal life partner, that's enough for me! Past incidents had made my mood went up and down. Could you please give me a better one? Just a 'better' one not the best of the world ! 

REDANG ISLAND ♥

Finally, I update my Redang trip    ^ ^

It was a 3days 2nights trips, I do hope I can stay longer at the island,haha!! I love the beach, a place where I can be alone in the bright sunlight, a place where I can sit and listen to the waves of water crashing a long the shore. We stayed at Redang Holiday Beach Villa, which are located on the long beach, cozily at the edge of lagoon. The resort has built overlooking the bay with crystal clear blue seawater, being built on the boulders against backdrop of the hillside and fronting the beach at Redang Island. It sounds great right? haha! Seriously, I was being inspiring by the white sands, blue sky and the sea !! 

 ♥

Hmm, actually I dint enjoy to play on the beach on the first day because I lacked of sleep last night ! My friends fetched me after I back from working last night and I dint sleep well in the car. They were too noisy, haha! Plus, there were drizzling in the early morning when we reached the jetty. I got minor headache due to this. Then, I rest in the resort. I slept for whole afternoon,gosh! When night came, we were strolling on the beach after our dinner. Ohya, I love the beach party !! We dance like no one business on the beach,haha!! And, I met with JW at Redang Island, he came with his gf and friends. 

♥

The next morning, we went for snorkelling. I was worrying about my safety for this activity initially because I dun know how to swim one. But, luckily, my friend was beside me and encouraging me and teaching me non-stop. At last, I able to do it. I can float on the SEA !! yeah!~ LOL

Thanks a lot to him for non-stopping teaching me this and that; taking good care everything for me and paid for me for the whole trip spending so that I have an memorable and unforgettable Redang tirp.

THANKS !!!

*hug*

I love the snorkelling the most throughout the trip.This because I can see the actually view of  undersea, the coral reefs, the fishes and some other marine organisms which I unable to spell it out..haha!!Even though, under the cruelly bloody hot sun, my lovely skin are being basked like hell yet it is worth it !!!!!!

Same as last night, we went to the beach party. I like the party too beside the snorelling. I met with two China girls. One called 王蕾another I dun remember edi.haha!!

But, this time, my foot was bruise and bleeding because someone has stepped on my foot accidentally 

=(

Have a great night again.

♥

Good thing comes very fast yet it flips away so quickly too. The 3rd day of the trip and it also the last day I stay on the Redang Island. I were so unwilling to leave the beautiful and memorable beach where I enjoyed the most ! *sad* 

I packed my luggage and went to brunch. After that, we had take some photos on the beautiful beach. Too bad, it was raining again !! We waited for our ship. All of us get wet again. 

zzzzz!

About some time, we reach the jetty yet still raining. I bought some souvenirs then we headed to Kemaman. My friend brought us for lunch. We had some otak-otak and some famous food in Kemaman. After the lunch, we went back to kl. 

I was tired yet enjoyable ~

It is a wonderful beach I ever seen !

Hope I can be there again in another time! 

WORKING DAYS

  three of us

thanks to Steven for the shooting

GARMIN GPS PROMOTION   !!!

I have been working for 6 days at Midvalley, promoting the GARMIN GPS. It was a great experience for me again. I get to know more clearer about GPS (Global Positioning System) 

And, I get to know few more good friends.

It was tiring days but enjoying when you guys hit the target of the sale. HAHA

First two days, Amanda and I get a '0' sale 

XD

Luckily, the following days we able to sell few units of GPS or else . .. . . .

h eh e

My highest sale of the day that I able to sell off 11 or 12 units of GPS if I not mistaken.

Happy working days ~

Happy Holiday

I just came back from my 3 days 2 nights redang trip!!!

It was a great trip for me! 

update for the the trip soon ~

nitez  

♥

MOTHER'S DAY

Today is Mother's Day ! Actually, my home doesn't like other family celebrate for the day. Just normal dinner we had at home. The dishes were cooked by mummy as normal day.

HAHA

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY ~

My attire of the day , long T with legging and a pair of high heels

I bought a pair of FLIPPER sandals and swim suit for my coming REDANG trip =)

And bought a black dress at NICHii

I hv learned to torture myself?

Why I say so? Because I been sleep at around 3am + everyday MOSTLY!!

And

I eat lesser then normal.

I just realised how thinner am I now!!

HAIZZZ!

OhYa, I going to Redang Island next month (17~19 May)

between, my family doesn't know that I m going and I din't tell them bcuz my mum will not allow=(

I felt happy but i hate SUN !!!

I think I'm going to be another "LOBSTER"( because one of my classmate just went there and his skin got sunburn and look like lobster ..hha)

So, waiting to see me to become another lobster ya  

♥

she can belong to anyone now

Sorry friends, 

sorry to whom care SO MUCH for me! 

Sorry to you..

Sorry to myself ..

I get thinner and thinner since I went back to my hometown.

I guess you guys will get shock when saw me. 

I take 2 meals per day ONLY most the days! 

And, I dint finish my food everytime ! 

+

I do sleep late every single night and didn't sleep well.

That's why I get thinner and thinner.

[I forced myself to eat as normal and have normal sleep time, but failed ]

My heartbeat are abnormal now, I am shaking sometimes

Feel so weak now. . .

Past incident left me with a feeling of deep hurt.

I appreciate my life now no matter how hard it would be, how long it take to cure my wound.

Sometimes, I'm grateful that " I AM STILL HERE " , 

because life is short, life is precious, life is good 

I'm appreciate everything, every people stay with me now ,because these are precious for me!

Thanks you , GOD !!!