Love is Understanding

The worse thing in the world is the person who you care the most and the trustful person of you do not UNDERSTAND you!!! You used to share everything with him, but in fact he doesn't know that how important he is for you. He is everything for you. You will do everything immediately for him, for his good. But, everything seem to be wasted. He doesn't know about it.

I tried to hide my emotion from him so that I won't spoil his mood when he is working and he will not worry for me. Yet, I feel like all this while what I did doesn't work at all. I feel so disappointed for myself. I tried to maintain and keep this relationship but everything seems so FAILED!

I have SO MUCH things to tell you but you hv no time to listen for me. When I talk you started to fed up. Sometimes, I really have no idea what should I do to be a qualified gf. You know how heart broken am I when I saw u fed up and mess up with ur stuff? I feel like I'm so useless, I can't lend u my hand when you are in mess.

I tried to be more tolerant, be more patient, and I've been waiting you will be treated me better after you solving your problems. You did. Yet, the same problem happen again when you are in mess. And I don't know what should I do next. Everything seems get tougher and tougher. Is it I too care about your feeling? Am I do so much?? 
I love you so that I do so much of thing involve changing myself so We can maintain our relationship and a long lasting love.  Everything only comes ONCE. Life is short. I do not want to regret for my rest of my life again.


I know you well. I understand your situation.
But you should try to understand me ..

A good relationship should have mutual understanding and tolerant. 

Hateful

To what extent do you understand your girl friend?? 

I'm so sad, I'm crying..I find nobody to speak with!

Sometimes, I really dun know what should I do when I m sad. 

And I just want to share with you. But You never know it.

How much I need you right now? When Im mad,im stress, who do I talk to? 

I dun trust anyone. I feel like I don't hv a close fren. Every single word I just want to tell you, DO you know?

They hurt me, they ignore me.. The world is ignoring me! 

Where are they!  

I just want to end up all this! How wish I could just take up a knife and cut it off! Do not need to care for anything anyone. Im tiring with this world. Sicking World sicking people! 

Im sick too.. 

No one understand me!

爱情

爱情这东西我不懂！

爱你却不能拥有你的全部

但我可以给你我的一切

爱情这东西是永远没有平衡点

给得太多就会不珍贵

是不是得不到的永远是最珍贵呢？

爱情如果一松手，就什么都没了

如果抓得太紧却让对方不能呼吸

一切都要刚刚好。

怎样说才是刚刚好？

我不会我真的不会

我只会关心你，为你下厨。我好像什么的不会了。

害怕

原来我最害怕的不是

黑暗

鬼怪

死亡

而是哪天你不在我身边了

我害怕哪天你不再爱我， 保护我

我害怕你不再理我

我害怕你从此消失在我眼前

我害怕你对我做了一个很冷酷无情的选择

常常

我都再担心这

我好害怕这种感觉

无助的，心痛的，绝望的

那种感觉就像梁静茹这首歌： 

【想念是会呼吸的痛】

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L for LIFE

I have not been sleep well this few days.. 

The stupid assignment and MUET test are driving me mad! 

Sometimes, I really can't make up my mind what should do 1st, what thing should come after. 

I mess up the schedule. 

As you know, I'm punctual people, I want everything in my life in a regular manner, hopefully everything will be in a routine basis! LOL..

I know it is impossible ..hehe..Actually I'm lazy, I do not want my schedules which I have planned properly change. I lazy to reschedule it again. 

Time is so precious for everyone. I not gonna waste a single simple thingy to affect my whole day plan.

 I will fed up with it, is very very annoying. 

Sometimes, this would make me moody and lost my concentration on doing other things. LOLx.. I always have a lists of schedule in my mind, my daily activity sounds robotic.haha.. 

Today is Saturdaay, i shall have gather with my whole family, get together for dinner at home/outside.

 I had my dinner with my family at home, watching Taiwan TV show, laughing together ♥ 

As normal, after dinner we will have our leisure time outside either Pasar Malam nor my relative's homeee. It's like 21 years, I have such habit on every Saturday nite since I was small.

 I love to live in this way ....

 

Hmm..it's the second last day bb at Guang Zhou, I looking forward for you to come back real soon. I hope I would be the 1st person you meet when you reach in airport. 

Yet, I can't make it and give you a surprise. Sorryyyy! This is because I have class in the Monday afternoon 2pm, and I dun know how to go Puchong to meet up wtih your sis so that I can go together with her to airport.. 

Anyway, we make our date on the next day(Tueday). 

Yeahhh~suddenly feel bit of nervous..lol..

It has been almost 3 months we never meet each other.. 

Ohhh, it's longgg.. 

Anywaay, the toughest days have passed! 

I miss you bb  ♥ 

I gonna give u a biggest warming hug !!!

APRIL FOOL

Today is April Fool! I bet you all will be fooled by ur frens! Yes, I fooled by my roomate..LOL  

It is April Fool, so it's ok to cheat/ fool people or being cheated..haha! Have fun what ..

But .....

sometimes during April Fool, doesnt mean all the people will fool you. Yesterday, i was chatting(sms&mailing) with bb. We were arguing for something and he asked for break up.

 I thought he was kidding with me you know. 

In fact, he annoyed and really mean to it.

 I was so depress and upset. 

A list of planning for our future suddenly like collapse. 

I was like a lost man. I dun knw what am I going to do next. 

As I have clearly visualize our future in my mind. 

I was depressed and disappointed for myself as I failed to be a good gf which I thought I am nearly perfect. In fact, I am not a good gf for you. 

I dun knw how to support you, encourage you when you oversea. 

But, I'm like creating problems and nonsense for you to make you more stressful. 

I am so bad! 

 I was doing  Business Research assignment with my frens in library.

 However, I can't concentrate on what I am doing. 

I throw alot of questions to myself, why ? 

Why I still is a failure people, I always make thing worse, make people upset for me, make people worry about me! 

What the hell I am doing huh? I'm 21 this year, why can't myself doing something more constructive and productive ???? 

I do not want to repeat all the shityy things I did before!

 I love you and I wan to do everything good for you so you will feel comfortable to stay together with me.. 

I want you have a unforgettable memory in ur life which is the time u spent with me.

 I want you feel how lucky and how happiness you are to have me! 

You are nearly PERFECT for me you knw??? 

Somehow, I do hurt you with my tones of voice, word of mouth ..

I'm so sorry bb .. 

Actually, I am too care for you so I will upset when you are saying something bad while you in a bad mood. 

Please forgive me ;)

I love you 

♥

W.H.y.

我们人往往总爱对自己爱的人， 在乎的人发脾气
搞得自己心情变差
是不是越在乎那个人， 他反而越不在乎你呢？

Indirect Relationship??? 

这些事是非常复杂的，
不能用什么SPSS system 就能计算出来了！
有时候 真的觉得做人难






现在的我真的很难过 ..