No matter
how tired his life be,
how heavy his burdens are,
how bad others being treated to him,
how dark the world is,
how lonely the night is,
betray, lost and depress do happen in future
there is still a person who is willingly standing there for him..
I swear and I promise
I will be there always but not every time
But,
He will never know that....

Again..I put the salt on my wound
Again..I made my wound even more seriously
I'm happy with that
Again..I m emo
I hate me because simply because i too in love with him
I know the word " forget him" is simply used to cheat on myself and my frens
Even and even..Reason, repeat and repeating..
Also, the bleeding wound is never recover!
I just wrap it up..It is inflamming?!
Wish he is right beside with me now..
it's right 430am and im still awake and online!!
I really wanna leave leave leave leave
I dun wan to play a role in this stage anymore!!!

I just got myself to bear all these..
I'm not in a good mood right now..
I'm wondering what he is doing now..
I'm feeling wanna cry out
I wan someone for me to talk with
What I can do is go to bed now and cry loneliness inside my blanket!
i cant let anyone to c my weakness...


i love You :i love myself =)

原来
出卖自己也比不上失去他 痛
冷静下来
并不是放下
而是 习惯了痛
我少了找你
不是我不再爱
而是我 厌倦了这样 的感觉
我变了
我变得 懒散了
我变了
我变得我也认不出我自己
我刚和朋友看了2012
我又在戏院睡着了
之从我一个人走
我变得好累
连看戏本来是轻松的
但给我 却是难受的
曾和他踏过的地方
都是难忘的
我不能再哭了
但是心里总是刺痛的
泪 却不由自主地滑落脸颊
我很累
真的
但他不再让肩膀给我靠...

I had learned one thing that like a person not necessarily he knew;

love a person, not necessarily need to own him.

it is impossible for me to do that in the past

but now i know and i am happy with that feeling.

the one i was happy with

the one i will keep it deep inside my heart

forever?!

no!

it's eternity!!

❤

when i saw my tears

i know that i still hurt, i still can't let go

when i listen to you

i know we dun wish the ending to happen

i know we dun wish to stay far away from each other..

when i hear your voice

i hear your pain

I act nothing as i dun wan you to see my sorrow

actually,

i wanna tell you that

i still mind, i still care for you.

my tears are never dry since you leave

i never feeling hateful

just feeling regret..

And i never put the blame on you

I'm confusing
I lost my feeling
I lost my direction
I thought tomorrow will be better
Who's knw? it is worsen..
no one can know my feeling
i cry for none reason
i m too over!
sorry !
the i dislike the ending but the beginning is even disappointed !
no one can give me a trust even myself..
i betrayed myself!!

look at my life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror

i stop thinking of someone else slowly.
i stop to take out and refresh those memories
i stop of spending my time on him
i stop of crying
i stop of being lazy
i stop to torture and hurt myself
i stop everything that i used to do before now
i start to looking around the world outside my vision
i step out my 1st step
i promise to myself: the tears wouldn't fall like this anymore,
it can only stay inside my eyes
tomorrow is hopefulness and beautiful
i look at my life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror
what our hearts want is always different from what our brains wish to do
so that we always do something else that opposite to our heart's wish

I will deserve all the sins as i believe in karma!

He needs a holiday~

wouldn't wanna it to swap away,
want him to know,
after all they have been gone through,
after all he has been said and done
it wouldn't fade out inside her heart
the girl FINALLY leave him
she's unwillingly
she's sad
she cries
she talk to no one else
she did so cuz she love him
she know he needs a holiday NOW
she starts her own new life
she is unhappy with her new life at the begining but she has to be happy even it's hard for her...

What was happening actually?
What happened to you?
Why the person can turn into like this?
I'm wondering what actually happening to you?
I really wanna leave you forever, really..
But i saw you like this and it made me more worries..
Did you take drugs and all tht?

HELL
You ..
you.....
i'm really speechless
can you pls take care of yourself, PLEASE!!
im no longer love you and you are just one of my friend.
im no longer free to spend my time on you by blogging and talk to you
when i say this which i really mean it..
when i'm wake up but you fall asleep!
Please be conscious , free ur mind!
please dun ain't nothing,
i really NO EYES TO SEE YOU

I' m wondering..

giving protection for one is it a bad matter?
I keep want to give a protection for one so that one wouldn't get hurt like other hurt him before..
i gave him everything
in order to make him smile =)
made him feel better &
so he is able to forget those bad memories which he have gone through before
am i did wrongly????
am i?
I thought you were hurt after broke up with ur ex-gf as you said she hurt you so bad?
Or...
I wanna stop thinking you and me
but
I just caught this memory in my mind!
Did you said this b4?
Did you?
I'm blurrrr..

My caring is that way too much for you?
too much?!
I was way too protect you from getting hurt
but
what i get at the end?

You taught me be caution to everyone around me
you taught me to be smart in making new friend
you taught me to be careful
but,
you never teach me how to be caution on you!
I never think that



you will be hurt me as anyone could be..

There are 2 reasons which i choose to let you go :

1. because of the fact of tarot's

2. because you are not the one who i fall in love with!

You no longer the one i willing to cry for, sacrifice for.
You no longer the one i willing to care for.
You are not you!
You are not my bao bei who love me so much.
You are devil and my bao bei is not a devil.
You do not have the odour of my bao bei had!
I 'm sad and sad..
is simply because my bao bei is dead!
I lost the one who love me most.
I lost the caring from my bao bei.

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